(alternative title: I decide to focus on English contents)

The day job I have been doing recently is editing and writing user manuals, which should always be international-oriented. One day I realized if I wanted to make English my primary vessel for thinking, I should write in English more often, not just use it in the workspace. — Due to this desire to practice English writing, I started blogging in English.

The drawback of writing in English is that it makes this blog kind of “hidden” for some potential Chinese readers (Although I am nobody, I still assume this web address is accessible to everyone). But here are the reasons that I do not post in Chinese here (at least this year): Firstly, I hope I focus more on WRITING DOWN the ideas in my mind, rather than SHARING OR MARKETING. Although I still want to share and make content reasonably accessible for everyone, I feel my desire of “writing (in English)” weighs higher than “sharing ideas.” Secondly, I want to make my life easier: since these thoughts naturally come out of my mind in English rather than Chinese, writing the drafts in English becomes an intuition.

(The inner struggle ends, and finally, I farewell to the idea of writing in both English and Chinese.)

But once decided, my anxiety transferred to “how can I overcome my perfectionism of using English,” which is also overlapped with “how can I overcome my perfectionism of generally doing anything .” I do have some experience of English writing back to college, but I have never been self-motivated to write English publicly. Unfortunately, I am also a perfectionist, which doubtlessly leads to procrastination.

I have no way to do with overcoming my perfectionism. All I can do is self-hypnosis. I try to tell myself: Don’t worry too much about the grammar or words or phrases, because even the native speakers cannot guarantee perfectness, not to mention me as a native Chinese. JUST FOCUS ON THE CONTENTS. When I think this way, I feel the pressure of “writing each post perfectly” vanishes. Instead, I feel a sense of freedom. — I know this blog is just a tiny piece of leaf in the forest. But I still assume that my thoughts will be read by someone in the corner of the world. If it happens, it’s undoubtedly my pleasure. If no one’s reading, I still feel okay.

Though I wrote the things above, I still want to write a few lines for YOU: If you have any thoughts and ideas you would like to share, please send me an email by clicking the mail icon on my home page. I will be surprised but also be very glad.